I am still at work as I am typing this...
Cold, tired, hungry.
I am losing my energy. Will I be able to make it home?
I have so many things going on in my head. Everything is a blur... As a matter of fact, everything is beginning to get really blurry. This work must get done. No one else can do it but me. At least I found some time to work out my legs today, and boy did I give them one hell of a workout. Every part of my lower body was very tender coming out of the gym... I need food... I need water. My head is getting lighter. It is hard to focus on a lot of things. I need to do my caterpillar readings.... I am usually done by Wednesday for whatever we will be talking about on Saturday, but I am falling behind. It is hard to multitask, but I need to find a balance. I do not know how much longer I am going to last. I feel like sleeping here! But I can not! I must leave! I think I will go to the salsa social at 9... That should give me a little energy... enough to make it back to the Containment Area.
Lord, Help Me.
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
The Lenten Saga: Day 16
What a busy day!
Thursdays are my busiest day's out of the week. I guess it is because I have so much going on. In and out of work, with choir and working out... Plus running errands does not make the day any less busy. I got a lot done at work today but I still need to do more. Looks like I will be coming in on the weekend to get it all done! Such has been the way of things. Deadlines are tight, resources, tighter, time is a luxury no one seems to have... Wow, I have not even went salsa dancing in a long time! I will remedy that Saturday... wow, That is going to be a busy day too!
Well, I guess that is good, I am very active... No couch potato-isms here! Plus I am not in my apartment long enough to enjoy the craptacular one I have in my living room. Still looking at furniture for my new place... I want to get decent stuff... I will be here for awhile. I do want to live somewhat comfortably. Exciting times, busy times!
And somehow I survived 16 days of Lent! Hmm, have not received email about Caterpillar this weekend... I guess I will send out a reminder.
To day 17!
Thursdays are my busiest day's out of the week. I guess it is because I have so much going on. In and out of work, with choir and working out... Plus running errands does not make the day any less busy. I got a lot done at work today but I still need to do more. Looks like I will be coming in on the weekend to get it all done! Such has been the way of things. Deadlines are tight, resources, tighter, time is a luxury no one seems to have... Wow, I have not even went salsa dancing in a long time! I will remedy that Saturday... wow, That is going to be a busy day too!
Well, I guess that is good, I am very active... No couch potato-isms here! Plus I am not in my apartment long enough to enjoy the craptacular one I have in my living room. Still looking at furniture for my new place... I want to get decent stuff... I will be here for awhile. I do want to live somewhat comfortably. Exciting times, busy times!
And somehow I survived 16 days of Lent! Hmm, have not received email about Caterpillar this weekend... I guess I will send out a reminder.
To day 17!
Saturday, March 7, 2009
The Lenten Saga: Day 11
Caterpillar was on POINT today!
We had a very insightful series of conversations based off the chapters in the challenge, as well as the chapters in Job. So we had to make sure that the first 3 chapters (along with the first 3 chapters in Job) were read, or known, to make this a worthy conversation. And we all did. It was interesting in how the devil could not do anything without God's permission, and that God was willing to let the devil do everything short of killing Job. There was a lot of spirit in that room at church today. And I felt it. As my Lenten journey continues, I am really learning more about myself. What I can tolerate, and what I can not. Well, stuff that I need to work on. So far I have not broken my Lenten vows, and I feel really good that I have made it this far. I honestly thought I would have croaked by now.
This is no ordinary Lenten challenge year for me. This was the year that I said to myself that I was going to take it to the extreme! And see what happens. I have been tempted so much since Ash Wednesday, yet somehow, I keep winning. I guess it is because I keep praying whenever I feel tempted to give in. I just close my eyes, pray, silently, and sometimes out loud. I seriously ask myself, if it is worth breaking Lent just to satisfy a selfish indulgence, and everytime I try to find an excuse, I find another reason to to contrary, and I end up not giving in.
But it is hard sometimes... It is hard, because temptation is everywhere... It is out in full force, working in the shadows, in the still of the nights, in the quiet tremors of my sleep. Even in the calmness of the daytime, looking through the glass at work towards the West and towards the North, where a part of me still lies. The urge to break, surge, but it goes away. As long as I resist, it goes away.
I knew it was not going to be easy, but neither is being a Christian. So much challenge. Jesus never said it was going to be a cakewalk! You will be hated on, by the devil, by the world, and you will be tested and tempted to give into your desires. But Jesus also said that if the world hates me, know that the world has hated Jesus first. Just as Jesus carried the cross to take upon him the sins of mankind, so must I challenge myself to resist the temptations that are all around me. It is up to me to take up my cross... and follow Jesus.
On the flipside of things, it looks like I have zoned in on my future home! It is a nice 3 bed 3.5 bath townhome, still in the Containment Area and closer to work!!! Which is the key for me! The subdivision is still developing which means it will be complete and great by the time I finish my mission in this area. I am still bent on my seven year battle plan, and if things happen (marriage), so be it. But if I am still single, the possibilites of my career will be endless, especially for all I want to accomplish!
Time to start making moving plans! Good thing I do not have a lot to move! But it does not hurt being ready for whats to come! These are exciting, alluring, and extremely tempting times for me! Only with patience, time, prayer, the advice of good people, can I ever stand a chance at sorting this all out correctly.
Time for me to sleep now. I have to pick up my niece tomorrow! She will be joining me at church.
We had a very insightful series of conversations based off the chapters in the challenge, as well as the chapters in Job. So we had to make sure that the first 3 chapters (along with the first 3 chapters in Job) were read, or known, to make this a worthy conversation. And we all did. It was interesting in how the devil could not do anything without God's permission, and that God was willing to let the devil do everything short of killing Job. There was a lot of spirit in that room at church today. And I felt it. As my Lenten journey continues, I am really learning more about myself. What I can tolerate, and what I can not. Well, stuff that I need to work on. So far I have not broken my Lenten vows, and I feel really good that I have made it this far. I honestly thought I would have croaked by now.
This is no ordinary Lenten challenge year for me. This was the year that I said to myself that I was going to take it to the extreme! And see what happens. I have been tempted so much since Ash Wednesday, yet somehow, I keep winning. I guess it is because I keep praying whenever I feel tempted to give in. I just close my eyes, pray, silently, and sometimes out loud. I seriously ask myself, if it is worth breaking Lent just to satisfy a selfish indulgence, and everytime I try to find an excuse, I find another reason to to contrary, and I end up not giving in.
But it is hard sometimes... It is hard, because temptation is everywhere... It is out in full force, working in the shadows, in the still of the nights, in the quiet tremors of my sleep. Even in the calmness of the daytime, looking through the glass at work towards the West and towards the North, where a part of me still lies. The urge to break, surge, but it goes away. As long as I resist, it goes away.
I knew it was not going to be easy, but neither is being a Christian. So much challenge. Jesus never said it was going to be a cakewalk! You will be hated on, by the devil, by the world, and you will be tested and tempted to give into your desires. But Jesus also said that if the world hates me, know that the world has hated Jesus first. Just as Jesus carried the cross to take upon him the sins of mankind, so must I challenge myself to resist the temptations that are all around me. It is up to me to take up my cross... and follow Jesus.
On the flipside of things, it looks like I have zoned in on my future home! It is a nice 3 bed 3.5 bath townhome, still in the Containment Area and closer to work!!! Which is the key for me! The subdivision is still developing which means it will be complete and great by the time I finish my mission in this area. I am still bent on my seven year battle plan, and if things happen (marriage), so be it. But if I am still single, the possibilites of my career will be endless, especially for all I want to accomplish!
Time to start making moving plans! Good thing I do not have a lot to move! But it does not hurt being ready for whats to come! These are exciting, alluring, and extremely tempting times for me! Only with patience, time, prayer, the advice of good people, can I ever stand a chance at sorting this all out correctly.
Time for me to sleep now. I have to pick up my niece tomorrow! She will be joining me at church.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
The Lenten Saga: Day 8
You know what I have not written in awhile? A Social Dating Okie-Dok note! I guess that is because a lot of stuff is going on in my world, both inside and outside of work. Did not read Job 3 yet for the Caterpillar challenge. And since we did not meet last Saturday, the Engineer in me is saying "Hmm... If we were to discuss chapters 1 and 2 last saturday, and we need to do 1 chapter a week, what should the yankee be prepared to share with the group this week (to stay up to speed with the Caterpillar Challenge)?" My logic is flawless (damn I am good)!!! So Why am I slacking!?! I have no clue. Oh yea, I need to tell the choir peoples that I will be taking their pictures Sunday... I suppose I can do that at practice tomorrow, and I need to see if the nieces want to join me at church.
I wanted my next social dating okie-dok note to be about something that I addressed in an earlier entry (see Happy St. Valentines Day), but I think I am going to digress and talk about something else... Something a little bit more subtle that women do (which to me, is disrepectful) that I have encountered during the times I was single during undergrad, grad school, and even today. So to the ladies, I am just going to give you a heads up that you might not like my opinion or my position on this particular topic but at the end of MY day, when it comes to social dating, it solves more problems (for me) than it creates.
I wanted my next social dating okie-dok note to be about something that I addressed in an earlier entry (see Happy St. Valentines Day), but I think I am going to digress and talk about something else... Something a little bit more subtle that women do (which to me, is disrepectful) that I have encountered during the times I was single during undergrad, grad school, and even today. So to the ladies, I am just going to give you a heads up that you might not like my opinion or my position on this particular topic but at the end of MY day, when it comes to social dating, it solves more problems (for me) than it creates.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
The Lenten Saga: Day 7
I am so tired. Why am I even up this late? I need to get up around 5 or something tomorrow. This is gonna suck. Oh you know what? I did my next reading for Caterpillar. This next chapter was very intriguing, interesting, and sad. Now all I gotta do is read to corresponding chapter in Job... But not tonight! Tomorrow is going to be as exhausting as today. Inside and outside of work. Exercise is getting more intensive, along with maintaining Lenten promises. Heres to day 8!
Saturday, February 21, 2009
The Caterpillar Challenge and More on Madea
So I have signed up with some of the young adults to take part in something called a "Caterpillar Challenge." It is an eight week (well now seven-ish) journey in getting back in touch with our faith, and fellowship with other young adults. Kind of like a bible study, except this series completely focuses on the Bible's book of Job. We have a book and a workbook that depicts modern day stories based off the chapters in Job. I think this is going to be interesting, especially since I could use a little more faith in my life, and with Lent around the corner, I am going to rely on a lot of faith after finalizing my "give up" list. I am in good company with the Young Adults here at Church (as well as the choir members). Besides the people that I work with as well as the people who work for the same employer as I but not 'with me,' they have shown me the only true kindness that I have ever known since my arrival months ago. That says a lot and means a lot especially since I started all over on the social and friendship fronts. It is not easy being the new person, but I will not use that as an excuse. So wish me luck as I add the caterpillar challenge onto my list of Lenten activities 2009!
Now about this Madea movie... I will try not to spoil it, but overall, I think it was an okay movie. I would rank "Why Did I Get Married" and "Diary of a Mad Black Woman" over "Madea Goes To Jail." The movie had good parts in it, but (SPOILER ALERT), Madea does not go to jail until, in my opinion, some point past the halftime point of the movie. I honestly thought it was going to be Madea giving prison women way more advice and insight on their situations and how to become better women, but there was only one instance of that... Would I go see it again, MOST DEFINITELY!!! It is still hilarious as I dunno what, so yea, I would see it again. Plus there are messages that should be shared by all audiences, regardless of ethnicity.
Staying in-house tonight. Was thinking about salsa, but I have new priorities. My nephew and niece would like to attend church with me tomorrow, but I would have to get my nephew from Greensboro early in the morning, so I need to be fully dressed and out the apartment around 7. So no partying tonight. But I think it is worth it, plus its been awhile since my niece and nephew saw each other.
Now about this Madea movie... I will try not to spoil it, but overall, I think it was an okay movie. I would rank "Why Did I Get Married" and "Diary of a Mad Black Woman" over "Madea Goes To Jail." The movie had good parts in it, but (SPOILER ALERT), Madea does not go to jail until, in my opinion, some point past the halftime point of the movie. I honestly thought it was going to be Madea giving prison women way more advice and insight on their situations and how to become better women, but there was only one instance of that... Would I go see it again, MOST DEFINITELY!!! It is still hilarious as I dunno what, so yea, I would see it again. Plus there are messages that should be shared by all audiences, regardless of ethnicity.
Staying in-house tonight. Was thinking about salsa, but I have new priorities. My nephew and niece would like to attend church with me tomorrow, but I would have to get my nephew from Greensboro early in the morning, so I need to be fully dressed and out the apartment around 7. So no partying tonight. But I think it is worth it, plus its been awhile since my niece and nephew saw each other.
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