The Lenten Saga: Day 14

The day after the night before...

Yesterday, I was upset at some things that were happening around me. Today, I felt a little better, even though my day started off rocky. I could tell that a lot of things were on my mind from yesterday, and even earlier this morning when I got checked in (body measurements etc...) at the site gym for another upcoming general fitness competition. Even though I lost a lot of weight, and I do mean A LOT of weight, I had an elevated blood pressure of 140/80, which is basically hypertension. I am very confident that it was due to earlier events that happened in my day! I might have my blood pressure re-taken again because I know was not in the right of moods, and though it showed a lot on the outside, I took steps to make sure the least amount of people saw it.

Anger is a controlled emotion. I remember being told as a child that being angry was a sin. But I remember something that Father Massingale said at the Religious Education Congress in Anaheim one year... He said (or he might have been quoting this from someone, I think St. Thomas Aquinas), that anger is not a sin, it is an emotion, but there are sins against anger.

So I did what I have got accustomed to when I am not in the right of mind... I went to the gym. Today was cardio day, and I let it all out on the machines. I tried to keep my heart rate around 160, but there were multiple instances when it went above 170, which is the heart rate zone I try to avoid at all costs.

I will say, in all fairness to all sides, that my issue was resolved, and everyone reconciled. I will do what is necessary to put this all behind me. No "if's, and's or but's" about it. I am a part of a team, and I will do my part, and contribute to the best of my ability. This will not destroy me.

Still have not broken Lent. Still maintaining my Lenten commitments. I will pray to the Lord to help me through.